Next Year, Baby

Next Year,
Things are gonna change,
Gonna drink less beer
And start all over again

Gonna pull up my socks
Gonna clean my shower
Not gonna live by the clock
But get up at a decent hour

Gonna read more books
Gonna keep up with the news
Gonna learn how to cook
And spend less money on shoes

Pay my bills on time
File my mail away, everyday
Only drink the finest wine
And call my Gran every Sunday

Resolutions
Well Baby they come and go
Will I do any of these things?
The answers probably no

But if there's one thing, I must do,
Despite my greatest fears
I'm gonna say to you
How I've felt all of these years

Next Year, Next Year, Next Year
I gonna tell you, how I feel

Well, resolutions
Baby they come and go
Will I do any of these things?
The answers probably no

But if there's one thing, I must do,
Despite my greatest fears
I'm gonna say to you
How I've felt all of these years
Next Year, Next Year, Next Year

Jamie Cullum

YouTopia

Last project for the Fall 09 Semester.

Create a poster inspired by a word.

DREAM Center :: Logo Competition

UNESCO's DREAM Center Logo

This is my conceptual approach to the competition posted by Design 21. I wanted to create a type solution based on growing. I used Bodoni to emphasis a romanticism, and created the logo out of lowercase letters evolving into uppercase. I was pretty proud.

Unfortunately, it did not win. Out of over 1,000 entries, here are the winners. Thanks to everyone who voted for me though! Your support meant so much.

TPAC Logo Concepts

Teaching Public Administration Conference

Grand Rapids, 2010

I'm working on a logo for this upcoming conference. They want a more basic design, but I just had to post this little guy. His name is "Stan, the Public Administrator." Since TPAC didn't want him, I had to give him a home on my blog.

Cute, right? He'll probably pop up in a future design.

I have an Art Show Tonight.

Marzipan

AIGA Grand Valley Student Group Pattern Show

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Friday, December 11, 2009

6 PM - 10 PM

Mustache Gallery

120 South Division Ave

Grand Rapids, MI

A part of Grand Rapids Urban Lights Event.

AIGA Make/Think Conference Day 1

Checking in with our favorite Prof.

Serious.

I'm sitting in my SOC 280 Class (Social Problems), and in order to distract me from boredom, and random thoughts... I thought I should actually reflect on the conversations at hand.

We are currently going through and talking about all of the issues that we have read in the news, basically addressing the corruption in the world. It amazes me to actually acknowledge the problems in the society we live in. I much rather just keep pretending we live in a Disney movie, where everyone is cheerful and the good guys win.

However, I'm realizing more and more that the good guy does not always win. A little discouraging. I actually had a discussion with my friend, Elyse, yesterday about how I've become a lot more pessimistic since coming to College. I used to be so optimistic. I used to always think things would end up well, and that everyone had good, honest intentions. I miss that outlook.

I miss being naive, and just going through the day with a dumb smile, and positive expectations of the future. Now, I find myself fighting- all throughout the day -to stay positive and keep moving forward.

I'm not saying that we should give up, but it would be a really nice change if we could all just cheer the hell up and get through these setbacks. Myself included.

No more bad news. No more talk about how we're all poor. Let's just all become hippies. Wait, scratch that... I look bad in tie-dye.

At least I still have my humor. I think that's the only way out of this... to stop taking things so seriously... but I feel like life is getting serious.

Work from the University of San Diego

Just some basic freelance work. I was whored out from Resident Life at USD. I thought it was a nice chance to make something fun and whimsical. Kind of makes you hungry, doesn't it?

10 Essentials Every Design Student Should Know

10 Essentials Every Design Student Should Know

Welcome back to school. I could not be happier!

Happy Birthday To The Queen

A Designer's Love

Helvetica, Bold.

Julie & Julia

This movie taught me to be fearless... and a little bit crazy. I loved it.

When In Doubt

Madonna.

Messy.

You ever take a look at your life, and suddenly get the urge to barf? Yeah, I'm there.

Birds

I wanted to have a bit of fun. I just decided to make these cute guys. A work on repetition and simpleness. I might tweak it later in life, but I feel that this would be a great illustration for a web header, or children's store.

I just want to practice design as art. I'm enjoying illustrative approaches lately, yet keeping my clean lines and use of color and shapes. I only have a few weeks until I create design as corporate pieces. It's nice just to have fun with design, rather than worry if it is properly promoting something, or going to appeal to a client. Sometimes it's nice just to let go of all the rules and make something because you want to.

Communication By Design

Another self-promotion piece.

It's Time to Trust My Instincts

I need to write, but every time I go to blog about my life... I find myself being unable to express my thoughts. I think I might be afraid to think about what is really going on. Not that anything is too drastic, but I'm changing... becoming someone new... and I'm not really sure how to come to terms with that.

I've matured a bit. I also have detached from the less important aspects of entertainment (drama, gossip, etc.). Those things are nice benefits from this California adventure. I'm also okay with being away from boys. That is new.

Okay, I can see this will just be an epic post of rambling. To save myself and anyone who reads, I am just going to be honest. Honesty? That's a new concept. Honesty means to tell someone how you really feel. Honesty means to admit what is really happening. Honesty means to accept life for how it is and how it will be, and to be ready to ride out the wave of reality. Honesty is something I am learning to deal with.

Honestly? I am terrified of coming home. I'm scared that I will drift back into my old self. I like who I've grown into, and I don't want to slip back into a gossiper. I don't want to fall back into the immature drama that surrounded my friends and past relationships. I'm also scared of having to deal with rumors and lies. Those are never fun. The fall is also going to be very stressful. I have to balance friends, school, an internship, Sigma Pi, AIGA, and somehow find time for a real job so that I can pay for everything. It has been such a nice break being out here... just working and making friends. The responsibilities of Grand Valley have escaped me, and I'm not sure I'm ready to dive back in.

I'm also scared to come home and find that things have changed. Not just with my friends... I left some unfinished business back home, and I hope that I can pick up where I left off. I was so happy, and I just really don't want to be disappointed if things are no longer the way they were. Then again, if things aren't meant to be... then I will just have to bite the bullet and move forward with my life. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, and eventually I will reach the finish line.

In the end, I feel like I am coming to a choice. I can either dive myself into my activities and work/responsibilities... and just become distracted with all of that. This is how I kept my thoughts off of reality and adult issues. However, I can try and be a big boy when I get back. I can attempt to start dating again, I can start moving forward with my career, and I can learn to take a step back and enjoy what life brings me.

I pick choice number two. I pick a life of ups and downs. I don't want to have Junior Year be a repeat of my Sophomore Year. I want to experience life, not be distracted by it. Don't get me wrong, I want to stay involved with Sigma Pi/AIGA/Grand Valley... I just need to take the time to enjoy the real world (love, family, friends, etc.).

I rambled. I am sorry. I'm just anxious for the unknown. Then again, as I've acknowledged before: taking the risk is so much better than missing out on life. I need to put myself out there. I need to test the waters. I need to close my eyes, and leap.

A Quick Update.

Have you ever slept on the floor with the person you liked?
Um... about that. Central Michigan?

Are you a jealous person?
Only with the success of others.

Do you hate the last girl, other than family, you had a conversation with?
Not at all!

Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to?
The last person I left a voicemail with? Yes.

Is anything bothering you?
I hate this job, and I want to go home.

Who is in the room with you?
Berry, my phone.

How do you feel right now?
Like I never can never make the right choice.

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
7.5

Have you done something bad today?
Not yet.

Are you jealous of someone right now?
Yes, of them and their relationship.

Who can make you feel better in a difficult situation?
My Mom. Lizzz. Jaimie. Or Laura.

Where is the person you miss most right now?
They are both hanging out tonight... in Michigan. They are having one of their epic girls' nights. I'm assuming.

Can you really be "addicted" to someone?
No. I get over things fast... I think.

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot to you?
Starting to.

What were you like as a child?
Hyperactive.

How would you describe your day in three words?
Lack of meaning.

Look at your nails; do they need to be cut?
I'm good.

How do you think the year will end for you?
Celebrating New Years with a kiss.

Do you like to be cuddled?
At times.

Have you spoken to your mother today?
Tonight!

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
Have you met some of my brothers?

What is your current mood?
Anxious.

Has anyone ever called you a bitch?
I answer to no other name.

Have you ever been told that you were going to hell?
Story of my life.

Will this upcoming weekend be a good one?
I get to spend next weekend with my brothers! I miss Sigma Pi more than anything.

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
I'm usually open to everyone but the person that matters most.

Regret anything?
Not anymore.

What is the most difficult thing you've ever had to overcome?
Being on my own.

Have you ever intentionally made someone jealous?
I'm a pro.

Do you trust all your friends?
Yes. Even when they break it.

True love or one billion dollars?
Money.

Are family get togethers fun or awkward for you?
Awkwardly funny!

Are any of your friends hoping to be famous one day?
I am only friends with famous people.

Can you eat a whole pizza by yourself?
I don't eat.

Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
Sober.

What is the date today?
July 18th

Do you do the dishes for fun sometimes?
Yes!!! Also when I am stressed out or mad.

Better to Take the Risk, than Miss the Chance.

A couple hundred years ago Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. "Never leave that 'til tomorrow, which you can do today."

We've all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time; heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still, sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrows run until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin meant. That knowing is better than wondering. That waking is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst most intractable mistake, beats the hell out of not trying.

If Tomorrow Never Comes

Grey's Anatomy

A Movie to Remind You of the Big Picture.

"I have a life to start living!"

I watched this tonight with one of my new friends, after dealing with a very stressful Sunday. It reminded me of a few things: 1.) That I am still a romantic. 2.) That I love Christmas music. 3.) That there is so much more out there in this world than I have even begun to experience.

So much is waiting, and we just need to go and find it! I sometimes get dragged down by the small problems... tiny issues. Life is only as complicated as we want it to be. I'm realizing that much more. I'm realizing that if something is right- if something makes you happy -then there is no reason in Hell why you cannot make it work.

Life is about the Big Picture, and who will be in your frame.

Stress.

I worry too much.

Thank God for friends.

Hot Bitch.

Self Promotion Piece.

California UPdate.

San Diego has been very good to me. I have made some amazing friends, and truly feel that I will be reconnecting with these people long after this Summer. My job is great! Things get stressful, but when don't they in any work environment? I like my roommates. One of them walks out every morning and says "Good Morning Beautiful." Random, and hilarious. Little things like that just make this adventure so fun.

My internship should be working out. I get to sit down with the designers relatively soon and figure out things. In the meantime, the University is having me work on some PR/Marketing stuff, along with branding their Resident Life.

I shop too much. The stores out here are WAY too inviting. Oh well... looks like I'll be sending some clothes home via the U.S. Postal Service.

The culture is just amazing though. I really love it. I feel more and more each day like I belong out here. Last night I had a talk with Jeff, and we decided that we're getting an apartment somewhere in Cali as soon as we graduate. Although plans might change... I do know I'll be back to this state sometime in the near future. I started looking at apartments- just for fun -and I've never been more excited for after graduation.

As for the present: I am just soaking up this epic experience. I'm meeting so many different people, learning so much, and growing both as a person and a professional. I can dream about my future, and look forward to seeing my friends/family in August.

Life always has ups and downs. As for now, things are definitely looking "up."

Time to Bail.

You're perfect.

I want you to stick around.

But here is the part of the story when I run.

Russian Royalty

I was inspired today. Thought I might have some fun. It's a little Devil Wears Prada meets classic couture. The quote is mine.

New Regina Spektor!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rov3pV9PsRI

Brown Eyes

If everything was everything but everything is over.
Everything could be everything if only we were older.
I guess it's just a silly song about you.
And how I lost you and your BROWN EYES.

Junior Year

Can we talk about how excited I am for Fall? And by Fall I mean JUNIOR YEAR! Let's recap:

Junior Year

Upperclassman

Transitions 2009

Spotlight

AIGA!

I'll be a Junior in Graphic Design (not a newbie)

Sigma Pi! (Which is only going to be more amazing after Sigma Pi University this Summer)

Laura is back!

Football

HOMECOMING!!!

GREEK WEEK

I get to see all my friends again!

My internship starts with Jess <3

Another year with my Brothers

More shenanigans at S Club 7! We're pros now!

New students = New Friends

My classes are awesome

Kylie Minogue concert with Tom <3

Kelly Clarkson concert with Jaimie <3

Lastly:

I EPICALLY turn 21! I'm going to Vegas for the night. The Hotel room is covered. If you want to come, let me know and you just need to pay for your flight.

Yes. This year will be amazing. I can't wait for everyone to reunite in August, and the awesomeness to unfold.

Crush.

Life is too short to freak out over the little things. Life is to unpredictable to pass up the good things. I'm going to step out of character here, and actually let myself smile. I'm going to let myself listen to love songs, and watch romantic movies. I'm going to let myself fall flat on my face- because that's all just a part of the plan.

I've been over thinking and planning and analyzing all Summer. I'm sick of it. It just makes me stressed and a little depressed. Why? I need to just relax and let life take its course.

I think I'm heading in a good direction; I can't stop smiling.

High School Times.

Sometimes I miss Senior Year more than anything. Life was so much easier. Everyone was friends with one another. I was with all my friends. 

Most of all, I wasn't involved... with anybody. Life was easy. Life was fun. Life was about theatre and music and art. I miss those times of simplicity. Now, everything is complicated and grown up; no fun.

I miss High School times. I miss all my High School friends. I owe so much character development to those close people. I owe so much simplicity to that time.

Who'd Have Known

Life is good. I'm living in San Diego, meeting the coolest people, learning a ton, loving the culture...

And then, out of nowhere, I get blindsided and want to cry. I'm doing so much better on my own, but there's always that lingering thought. I hear a reminding song, see a movie, a commercial, get coffee... and I'm just thrown back into my weak spot.

Who'd have known, Who'd have known?

When you flash up on my phone,
I no longer feel alone.

Thank you Lily Allen for summing up my life in your c.d. 

My Idol.

When all else fails, remember your roots.

Paris Hilton-Nothing In This World
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I love her. I think I forgot what motivates me, and I forgot who I want to become. California is going to be the perfect reset button. Back to a summer filled with pop music, Showtime, Bravo, and sun! Time to get my Gay back on.

Thank you Paris.

1st Day of California

I love San Diego. My team seems really nice. I think this Summer is going to be nothing but fun!

However... I already miss my brothers. A lot. I don't know what to do without my close friends either. This is going to take some used to.

I'm coming back in August. I just need to remember that. I was gone from Grand Valley the same amount of time last Summer... although I was with Laura, Lizzz, and Jaimie then. Still... this isn't that big of a deal. Thank God for the phone, Twitter, and texting. 

Side note: THERE ARE SO MANY GAY COUPLES! I love it.

Wrapping up.

In case you missed it, my going away dinner went something like this:

It's nights like last night that remind me how lucky I am. Even the people that couldn't make it out still called me. I got to talk/see all my best friends and I was thrilled. Thank you to everyone that came around last night. More than anything, it meant a lot to see all of my friends together. I'm so excited for the Fall; to just have this huge family.

I'm not too worried anymore though. Now... now it's just pure excitement. 

Day 1 of 3.

Wednesday is my last day in Grand Rapids. Thursday I spend back at home with my mom. Friday, I fly out at 6 AM. 

I need to pack, study to pass my Astronomy Final- since I'm taking it 10 days early on Wednesday, and finish up all my projects at work. I have so much to do and so little time.

This wouldn't be so bad, if I didn't just freak out every 10 minutes, when I realize that I'm leaving everybody. I understand that I'm coming back... but I have never been away from all my friends and family for more than one week. 

If you read this, stay posted over the summer. I'm going to continue to update about my San Diego adventures. I'll post pictures and whatever else I find. Until then, I'll just keep complaining about how I'm freaking out. 

In the end though, I am more excited than anything. This is one of my biggest adventures. 

"To live... to live would be an awfully big adventure."

A Work in Progress

The new logo design for the Grand Rapids Arena District. I've been working on it for a few weeks. Just a sample of the design, colors, and type. The final approval is June 3rd. When it passes, the logo will be seen all over Grand Rapids. 

The River of Dreams.

Change is hard. Especially when everything changes at once. These past few weeks have been amazing. I've learned more about myself (both good and bad) than I have all year. I realized that I'm still growing up. I realized that I'm not ready for everything. I also realized that I don't know what I want. 

I wouldn't give the time spent with you for anything. It was amazing, beautiful, and awakening. Now I have to leave, and so do you. Although I know that we both have to take our own paths and opportunities, I still can't help but feel terrible about leaving. 

I doubt you'll read this, but "Thank you." One day, when I'm ready... hopefully I can feel the way I've been feeling again. When I feel that safe, when I feel that encouraged, when I feel that open... I'll know I've found what it is that I've been looking for.

Nothing is going to tear my heart out more than being away from you. This may seem dramatic, but I have very few people in my life that I care about as much as I have learned to with you. I know that I have to go to San Diego... and all I can do is hope that we stay close. 

If not, then all I can do is thank you for all the moments we've shared. I've been spoiled. I hope someone, someday, can live up to half of what you are. 

GLEE

I am obsessed with this show!

I downloaded the song, and cannot wait for the season to premiere in the Fall.

One Fine Day

Classic. Forever and always. I want to meet someone like this.

Bad Call.

I need to make better choices.

Growing Up.

I gained a great deal of perspective today.

I'm in a new place right now.

I'm in a good place.

I'm happy.

I'm lucky.

Simply Put.

My Life.

The man in the Red Stripes

Remember the game Where's Waldo? I sucked at that. I would spend the entire time, frustrated, staring at the pages, never being able to find him. Eventually, I would just give up, close the book, and go watch TV.

I think people are still playing though. We finally think we find what we want, but it just ends up being a stripped popcorn can, or something equally disappointing. I don't know what I want, I just know I'm supposed to win the game. I'll keep turning the pages, but the frustration remains.

Why do we keep looking so hard? 

Summer

Summer is a beautiful season.

It's a season of fresh starts,

Of music, and blue skies.

It's a season of freedom.

It's a season of life.

Summer is a magical season.

It's a season where people meet,

And things are simple.

It's a season of possibilities.

It's a season of love.

Summer is a hopeful season.

Wannabes

Not to sound bitter, but people think they are way more important to me than actuality.

Get over yourself.

Unless I TELL you that you are one of my favorites, you're not.

I generally like everyone, but I'm not attached to them all.

So yes, it is quite easy to get over you.

You were nothing special.

I can find another gay, overly tan, emotionally unstable, egotistical, slightly pudgy, self-obsessed, promiscuous, alcoholic, pot-smoking, musical-loving, abercrombie wearing guy anywhere. Did you really think you were irreplaceable? I was on to better people a month ago. 

If you remember, you were the one who has been trying to talk to me for the last three weeks. I never initiated anything. You will not be missed. 

Thankfully, I've grown up. I moved on, and realized what is really important to me. 

I love to cry at weddings.

I made the wedding invitations for my parents today. 

This is a really big deal! I'm so excited for them!

I like the invitations, also. I'm rather proud! 

The theme is colors and carnations... enough said.

It was nice to do something special for my parents.

Now I don't need to get a gift. lol.

17 Again

1.) That song is amazing. One of my all time favorites. My favorite Will and Grace episode (Bed Bath, and Beyond) ends with that song... SO GOOD! I always cry. It has nothing to do with the movie though.

2.) Zac Effron is hot. Gay and hot. 

3.) That was a very good movie! Funny, yet super inspiring. Which leads me to this post:

Zac Effron plays this epic hero that helps out everyone he knows. He is the perfect friend, and always has the right thing to say. His character is pretty much the best role model ever...

I need to be a better person. I wouldn't consider myself a bad person, but I'm definitely not the person I want to grow up to be. I know I have a lot more ahead of me, but I should work a little more to get there. I want to be that guy that is always helping people out. I want people to come to me for advice. I want to be the nicest guy you've ever met.

The only problem: I'm kind of a dick. Everyone tells me that. IDK what happened this semester, but I've become this bitchy, none-filter, jerk. I don't like that. I usually only act like a diva when I meet a big group of new people... it's my defense... my only reasoning is that I have met a whole new group- the Fraternity. Unfortunately, now Sigma Pi has this awful image of me being someone I'm not.

I'm not sure how to explain this. I just know that I need to take down my front. I need to show people that I'm really a good person. I hate the fact I always have an outer layer. 

My ego is not that big.

I really don't hate people.

I don't really think before I talk.

In a professional setting I never talk.

I'm genuinely nice.

I would do ANYTHING for anyone of my Brothers or Friends.

I'm not that needy.

I'm really laid back when I feel comfortable.

Only a few people know the real me, and I've known them for over 5 years.

So here's to the Summer, and me becoming a better person! Not so much becoming someone new, but pealing back that protective layer of jerkiness. 

Sorry if I've been mean to you this semester, I just hide my insecurities that way. Not cool. Give me another shot? :)

Sophomore Year Reflection

So as I sit here, finished cleaning up my disgusting post-party living room, I was thinking about what a crazy year it has been. I've had a lot of good moments, some bad, some regretful, some meaningful- all in all though, this was a good year.

Academics kicked my ASS! Rough year, I don't even know what my grades will be like this semester. I'm sure I did okay, I just hate getting C's. They're average and irritating. Whatever.

Graphic Design was ridiculous. I remember Freshman Year, the GD Program seemed so mysterious and amazing- so elite. Now that I'm in it, it seems like a shit load of work. I know I'm learning a ton, and I know this is where I belong, but the way everything is designed, it's so easy to lose sight of WHY any of us our in the program. I know I've lost myself as an artist this year, and I'm going to spend the summer fixing that. Aside from that, I did have a really good prof. He is leaving, and I'm going to miss him very much. He was a good teacher, and a good friend. I've never had a teacher mentor the entire class like he did. Chris Fox is a good guy, and whoever is replacing him has some big shoes to fill.

Graphic Design is a big hot scary mess, but I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.

Spotlight- it's crazy how much that consumed my life. I loved it. I made the best friends and I couldn't be any luckier. Hinel, Alicia, Katie, Courtney, Stacey- you guys are so important to me. I never open up to people that way I have to you. I'll miss Stacey and Courtney so much. I'm just glad I at least had the two years with them.

Then there's Sigma Pi... I can't express how much the Fraternity has changed me for the best. Those guys are more than just my brothers- they are my friends- some, my best friends. I don't know how I've gotten through life without Q. It's amazing how all your life you can search for something, and when you finally find it, life just seems right. The Iota class is amazing. I am honored to be with such a classy group of future leaders. My Big, Jake, is one of the most respectable persons I have met. I see a very good friendship developing, and I cannot wait. Initiating into Sigma Pi was the best decision of my life... EVER. 

Aside from all that, my personal life has definitely changed. I don't have the same friends as I did Freshman Year. That makes me sad. I thought the Hoobler Family would last forever, but I'm realizing more and more that may not be the case. It's very depressing, but I can't control it. I just hope things get better. 

As far as relationships go- I had a few "interesting" ones this year. If anything, all I went through with that has helped me to grow up. I'm still dealing with some unresolved issues and feelings- but if it's not rough it isn't fun. I'll also get a few good chapters out of it for the book I'll eventually write. Shit got messy, but that's life. Love is a big, complex game. I just hope I can be on the winning side sometime soon.

My family is still okay. We've all changed though. The dynamics aren't the same. It's hard being away so long from them- I feel like I should be around more to keep an eye on things. I was always the mediator for the relatives... and now going home for holidays, I can tell that there are a lot of things unsaid. Once again though, I can't control it. I did reconnect with my Aunt Dawn though. I really needed her a lot this year. I'm glad I have people like her on my team.

Lastly, the biggest thing of the year- my Grandma Schulz passing. Honestly, I still haven't really confronted those feelings yet. It's sad. She was my closest friend, and practically raised me. I owe all of my best qualities to her. She taught me to be a gentleman, and to achieve in everything I do. She was my biggest fan. From now on though, I will do so much more in this life. I know she's looking down on me, and I want to give her every reason to still be proud of the life I'm living. 

What's next? A VERY good, productive Summer. I feel the future is going to be very exciting and wonderful. Junior Year will be here before I know it. Fall. Football. RECRUITMENT! Ireland? I'm looking forward to everything. I'm looking forward to the unexpected.

Lastly, thank you to all my friends. 

You have shaped me, and the life I lead. 

You are all more important than I let on. 

Again, thank you.

Sophomore Year.

Just Touch Me

I was inspired last night to do some work.

This is for my Graphic Design 2 -Digital 

Sketchbook. I'm working on just letting

my creativity break out. I've been under

constrains all semester with logo identity,

it feels freeing to just make some work

on my own terms. I'll post more if they're

worth people viewing... and they will be.

The Good. The Bad. And the Fratty.

Last weekend was amazing. 

Sigma Pi dominated my life with events, and I even got to hang out with some of my favorite sorority girls. It was really one of those weekends that just make me LOVE being a GVSU student. Even more, it was one of those weekends that made me LOVE being Greek. 

I didn't do much studying, but I'll be fine for exams. I just really needed some time with the brothers. 

On a bad note- some other stuff did occur. It's funny, it was such a good weekend, and then one thing can just screw everything up. I really wish it didn't happen. I really wish it was under different context. I really wish that people would respect me more. 

Honestly though- I'm moving on. I always let things like that drag me down and mess me up- but I refuse this time. I should learn not to make the same mistake ALL THE TIME, and maybe someday I will... Overall though, I will remember this weekend as a very positive series of moments for Sigma Pi.

P.S. I went to Kleiner, IT'S TOTALLY WINDOW SEASON!!! I use no doors now :)

Settling.

Assholes.

I'm over them.

NEXT!

Countdown

It's Friday.

I see Britney Spears in 13 days.

That's a sign.

Choices.

Today I finished my BIG project for Geography 235 at 3:30 AM. It's due at 1:00 PM. 

I can't believe it's done! That is such a weight lifted off my shoulders. Now I just need to do the final draft of my SWS Art History II final draft... due Friday at 5 PM. So many deadlines.

Aside from school though, so much is happening in my life. Some good. Some bad. More or less though... I can't define the majority. I feel like I'm at a crossroad with so many things. There's the choices of what I want to do... and what I should do... what people tell me to do... and what I feel is right. Complex.

I know that for one instance, I have some big decisions to make. I just don't know if I can. I don't know what I want yet. Does anyone ever really know what they want though? Or even, what they need?

I feel that all decisions are based on the majority. We do what is right, because everyone tells us that is right... even if in your gut it feels wrong. 

Maybe decisions are pointless. Maybe that's just a concept that people came up with to manage some control over life. Maybe I just just let things happen. Everything happens for reason... so I should just see what comes of it all? 

Maybe this is all just 4 in the morning blurbing. Yes, that is a word now.

Maybe I should sleep.

Sophomore Slump

Can school be done now?

I'm ready for my life to start. As most angsty 20 year olds are.

Switching Over

I used to have a LiveJournal account (technically I still do). I think this is much more grown up. I'll see what fun I can have with Blogger. 

I think this will be epic...