A Work in Progress

The new logo design for the Grand Rapids Arena District. I've been working on it for a few weeks. Just a sample of the design, colors, and type. The final approval is June 3rd. When it passes, the logo will be seen all over Grand Rapids. 

The River of Dreams.

Change is hard. Especially when everything changes at once. These past few weeks have been amazing. I've learned more about myself (both good and bad) than I have all year. I realized that I'm still growing up. I realized that I'm not ready for everything. I also realized that I don't know what I want. 

I wouldn't give the time spent with you for anything. It was amazing, beautiful, and awakening. Now I have to leave, and so do you. Although I know that we both have to take our own paths and opportunities, I still can't help but feel terrible about leaving. 

I doubt you'll read this, but "Thank you." One day, when I'm ready... hopefully I can feel the way I've been feeling again. When I feel that safe, when I feel that encouraged, when I feel that open... I'll know I've found what it is that I've been looking for.

Nothing is going to tear my heart out more than being away from you. This may seem dramatic, but I have very few people in my life that I care about as much as I have learned to with you. I know that I have to go to San Diego... and all I can do is hope that we stay close. 

If not, then all I can do is thank you for all the moments we've shared. I've been spoiled. I hope someone, someday, can live up to half of what you are. 

GLEE

I am obsessed with this show!

I downloaded the song, and cannot wait for the season to premiere in the Fall.

One Fine Day

Classic. Forever and always. I want to meet someone like this.

Bad Call.

I need to make better choices.

Growing Up.

I gained a great deal of perspective today.

I'm in a new place right now.

I'm in a good place.

I'm happy.

I'm lucky.

Simply Put.

My Life.

The man in the Red Stripes

Remember the game Where's Waldo? I sucked at that. I would spend the entire time, frustrated, staring at the pages, never being able to find him. Eventually, I would just give up, close the book, and go watch TV.

I think people are still playing though. We finally think we find what we want, but it just ends up being a stripped popcorn can, or something equally disappointing. I don't know what I want, I just know I'm supposed to win the game. I'll keep turning the pages, but the frustration remains.

Why do we keep looking so hard? 

Summer

Summer is a beautiful season.

It's a season of fresh starts,

Of music, and blue skies.

It's a season of freedom.

It's a season of life.

Summer is a magical season.

It's a season where people meet,

And things are simple.

It's a season of possibilities.

It's a season of love.

Summer is a hopeful season.

Wannabes

Not to sound bitter, but people think they are way more important to me than actuality.

Get over yourself.

Unless I TELL you that you are one of my favorites, you're not.

I generally like everyone, but I'm not attached to them all.

So yes, it is quite easy to get over you.

You were nothing special.

I can find another gay, overly tan, emotionally unstable, egotistical, slightly pudgy, self-obsessed, promiscuous, alcoholic, pot-smoking, musical-loving, abercrombie wearing guy anywhere. Did you really think you were irreplaceable? I was on to better people a month ago. 

If you remember, you were the one who has been trying to talk to me for the last three weeks. I never initiated anything. You will not be missed. 

Thankfully, I've grown up. I moved on, and realized what is really important to me.