A Movie to Remind You of the Big Picture.

"I have a life to start living!"

I watched this tonight with one of my new friends, after dealing with a very stressful Sunday. It reminded me of a few things: 1.) That I am still a romantic. 2.) That I love Christmas music. 3.) That there is so much more out there in this world than I have even begun to experience.

So much is waiting, and we just need to go and find it! I sometimes get dragged down by the small problems... tiny issues. Life is only as complicated as we want it to be. I'm realizing that much more. I'm realizing that if something is right- if something makes you happy -then there is no reason in Hell why you cannot make it work.

Life is about the Big Picture, and who will be in your frame.

Stress.

I worry too much.

Thank God for friends.

Hot Bitch.

Self Promotion Piece.

California UPdate.

San Diego has been very good to me. I have made some amazing friends, and truly feel that I will be reconnecting with these people long after this Summer. My job is great! Things get stressful, but when don't they in any work environment? I like my roommates. One of them walks out every morning and says "Good Morning Beautiful." Random, and hilarious. Little things like that just make this adventure so fun.

My internship should be working out. I get to sit down with the designers relatively soon and figure out things. In the meantime, the University is having me work on some PR/Marketing stuff, along with branding their Resident Life.

I shop too much. The stores out here are WAY too inviting. Oh well... looks like I'll be sending some clothes home via the U.S. Postal Service.

The culture is just amazing though. I really love it. I feel more and more each day like I belong out here. Last night I had a talk with Jeff, and we decided that we're getting an apartment somewhere in Cali as soon as we graduate. Although plans might change... I do know I'll be back to this state sometime in the near future. I started looking at apartments- just for fun -and I've never been more excited for after graduation.

As for the present: I am just soaking up this epic experience. I'm meeting so many different people, learning so much, and growing both as a person and a professional. I can dream about my future, and look forward to seeing my friends/family in August.

Life always has ups and downs. As for now, things are definitely looking "up."

Time to Bail.

You're perfect.

I want you to stick around.

But here is the part of the story when I run.

Russian Royalty

I was inspired today. Thought I might have some fun. It's a little Devil Wears Prada meets classic couture. The quote is mine.

New Regina Spektor!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rov3pV9PsRI

Brown Eyes

If everything was everything but everything is over.
Everything could be everything if only we were older.
I guess it's just a silly song about you.
And how I lost you and your BROWN EYES.

Junior Year

Can we talk about how excited I am for Fall? And by Fall I mean JUNIOR YEAR! Let's recap:

Junior Year

Upperclassman

Transitions 2009

Spotlight

AIGA!

I'll be a Junior in Graphic Design (not a newbie)

Sigma Pi! (Which is only going to be more amazing after Sigma Pi University this Summer)

Laura is back!

Football

HOMECOMING!!!

GREEK WEEK

I get to see all my friends again!

My internship starts with Jess <3

Another year with my Brothers

More shenanigans at S Club 7! We're pros now!

New students = New Friends

My classes are awesome

Kylie Minogue concert with Tom <3

Kelly Clarkson concert with Jaimie <3

Lastly:

I EPICALLY turn 21! I'm going to Vegas for the night. The Hotel room is covered. If you want to come, let me know and you just need to pay for your flight.

Yes. This year will be amazing. I can't wait for everyone to reunite in August, and the awesomeness to unfold.

Crush.

Life is too short to freak out over the little things. Life is to unpredictable to pass up the good things. I'm going to step out of character here, and actually let myself smile. I'm going to let myself listen to love songs, and watch romantic movies. I'm going to let myself fall flat on my face- because that's all just a part of the plan.

I've been over thinking and planning and analyzing all Summer. I'm sick of it. It just makes me stressed and a little depressed. Why? I need to just relax and let life take its course.

I think I'm heading in a good direction; I can't stop smiling.

High School Times.

Sometimes I miss Senior Year more than anything. Life was so much easier. Everyone was friends with one another. I was with all my friends. 

Most of all, I wasn't involved... with anybody. Life was easy. Life was fun. Life was about theatre and music and art. I miss those times of simplicity. Now, everything is complicated and grown up; no fun.

I miss High School times. I miss all my High School friends. I owe so much character development to those close people. I owe so much simplicity to that time.

Who'd Have Known

Life is good. I'm living in San Diego, meeting the coolest people, learning a ton, loving the culture...

And then, out of nowhere, I get blindsided and want to cry. I'm doing so much better on my own, but there's always that lingering thought. I hear a reminding song, see a movie, a commercial, get coffee... and I'm just thrown back into my weak spot.

Who'd have known, Who'd have known?

When you flash up on my phone,
I no longer feel alone.

Thank you Lily Allen for summing up my life in your c.d. 

My Idol.

When all else fails, remember your roots.

Paris Hilton-Nothing In This World
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I love her. I think I forgot what motivates me, and I forgot who I want to become. California is going to be the perfect reset button. Back to a summer filled with pop music, Showtime, Bravo, and sun! Time to get my Gay back on.

Thank you Paris.

1st Day of California

I love San Diego. My team seems really nice. I think this Summer is going to be nothing but fun!

However... I already miss my brothers. A lot. I don't know what to do without my close friends either. This is going to take some used to.

I'm coming back in August. I just need to remember that. I was gone from Grand Valley the same amount of time last Summer... although I was with Laura, Lizzz, and Jaimie then. Still... this isn't that big of a deal. Thank God for the phone, Twitter, and texting. 

Side note: THERE ARE SO MANY GAY COUPLES! I love it.

Wrapping up.

In case you missed it, my going away dinner went something like this:

It's nights like last night that remind me how lucky I am. Even the people that couldn't make it out still called me. I got to talk/see all my best friends and I was thrilled. Thank you to everyone that came around last night. More than anything, it meant a lot to see all of my friends together. I'm so excited for the Fall; to just have this huge family.

I'm not too worried anymore though. Now... now it's just pure excitement. 

Day 1 of 3.

Wednesday is my last day in Grand Rapids. Thursday I spend back at home with my mom. Friday, I fly out at 6 AM. 

I need to pack, study to pass my Astronomy Final- since I'm taking it 10 days early on Wednesday, and finish up all my projects at work. I have so much to do and so little time.

This wouldn't be so bad, if I didn't just freak out every 10 minutes, when I realize that I'm leaving everybody. I understand that I'm coming back... but I have never been away from all my friends and family for more than one week. 

If you read this, stay posted over the summer. I'm going to continue to update about my San Diego adventures. I'll post pictures and whatever else I find. Until then, I'll just keep complaining about how I'm freaking out. 

In the end though, I am more excited than anything. This is one of my biggest adventures. 

"To live... to live would be an awfully big adventure."